If You Think You May Have Married A Crazy Person

I know it crossed my husband’s mind a time or (let’s be honest) a dozen times when we were first married. I know in our first months of matrimony he looked at me more than once like he did not even know me at all.

The first time was perhaps when we were fighting about something really good like how long an unused glass should sit on the countertop. My husband would say an empty glass could sit on the countertop and be refilled again for further hydration purposes throughout the day and I am more of a “as soon as it hits the countertop I am swooping it into the dishwasher” kind of gal.

One of these first fights had us both pretty heated as we were both just learning the dance of communication in marriage.

Literally while I was firmly speaking about all the times he had left his glass out with hands going in all directions my sweet husband sat down on the couch opened his Bible and motioned me to sit next to him. He started reading the scriptures to me and I think my head started spinning like the exorcist lady.

I gave my husband my evilest of teacher looks and I growled, “YOU GET THAT BIBLE AWAY FROM ME.”

Call me a horrible Christian or call me human but I did not want to hear the Word of God in that moment.

This may have been the first little appetizer of my insanity and the first time my husband may have thought he married, for better or for worse, a crazy person.


The soup and salad course of this dazzling crazy person meal would probably have been the time he brought a buddy home after seminary class while I was at work without telling me. When he brought me home that afternoon and mentioned the great time he had I FREAKED OUT because I had not cleaned the toilets that morning.

The entree was most likely when I had my new husband take me to the emergency room because I believed I was having a heart attack. I was twenty-two and generally in good health but on the way to the hospital I was panicking about quadruple-bypasses.

The dessert course was most likely the other argument we had about glasses on the counter and he asked me if we could pray about it and I said “Sure, you pray out here in the living room and I will pray in the bedroom.” And I fell asleep instead of praying.

And this was really me.

I was really married to my husband and I was struggling to believe truth, hear truth and walk in truth.

And I was really hurting.


My husband loved me though it.

He may be the only person that has truly seen me in the worst of times, the craziest of times, and loved me through the crazy.

And at times our marriage has felt like Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride but my husband has fastened his seatbelt and committed not to unbuckle and bail when the bumps and hiccups feel like something he didn’t sign up for.

“Human sin is stubborn,” says Cornelius Plantinga, “but not as stubborn as the grace of God and not half so persistent, not half so ready to suffer to win its way.”3 Stubborn, persistent, unrelenting grace that changes us. Now that’s good news indeed.”
― Dave Harvey, When Sinners Say “I Do”

The beautiful thing about a marriage founded in the gospel is Michael and I both are not committed to the person who we see sitting in front of us right now in this present moment. As husband and wife, we are committed to the wretched mess being sanctified only because of the power of God working in us. And we believe that God isn’t finished with us yet but working in us until we reach our full potential and beauty.

So if you are in a Christian marriage and you are contemplating whether or not you married a crazy person…

Cling to the truth that the icing on that cake is coming and one day, God will perfect us with all the endless truth and beauty freely offered on Christ.

“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.”
― Timothy Keller, The Meaning of Marriage

He is able to redeem the crazy person and give the crazy person the gift of grace of being known and loved.


3 thoughts on “If You Think You May Have Married A Crazy Person

  1. Darlene Haun says:

    Rachel, This is just the BEST POST!!  I tried to comment, but I could not sign in, I do not remember my password if I ever did set one up. Darlene Haun From: One With The Pastor To: rabbit6938@sbcglobal.net Sent: Tuesday, August 4, 2015 9:43 PM Subject: [New post] If You Think You May Have Married A Crazy Person #yiv2590507913 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv2590507913 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv2590507913 a.yiv2590507913primaryactionlink:link, #yiv2590507913 a.yiv2590507913primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv2590507913 a.yiv2590507913primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv2590507913 a.yiv2590507913primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv2590507913 WordPress.com | onewiththepastor posted: “I know it crossed my husband’s mind a time or (let’s be honest) a dozen times when we were first married. I know in our first months of matrimony he looked at me more than once like he did not even know me at all.The first time was perhaps when we wer” | |


    • onewiththepastor says:

      I am so sorry. I do not get around to responding to comments on my blog nearly enough. Responding to blog comments normally requires sitting down at the computer rather than typing on my phone. I have been finding it more and more difficult to sit down at the computer these days. I am so glad you liked the post and we miss you all in St. Louis. I think of Tiana often and I hope she is well. Hugs to you and your whole family.


  2. Bonnie Coe says:

    Rachel, Your Posts are always so touching, refreshing, and true! Thank you for sharing the intimacies of your life and making us all feel more human.


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